Small talk

Ahhh we had our first little "small talk" today. It was akward but it left me in knots for the rest of that block...and the rest of the day. Okay so I was sitting there doing my warm-ups with my friends. He turned around and smiled at us and said "Hello ladies" . Lawd jesus I'm trying to type this without shaking.

But anyways we all said hey back and then he was like "How are y'all doing today?". I didn't respond  because I was too in awe of his smile. His perfectly white and straight teeth (anyone that knows me, knows I love a boy with some nice teeth!). His cocoa brown skin tone. His curly hair and my God his deep voice!

Anyways then he asked me how was I doing and I said "I'm good, thank you" (at this time I was smiling like a complete idiot!)  Then I asked him how was he doing and he said "I'm great, thank you". Ahhh he so fine.

Even though it was a very very quick conversation I feel good about it. Like maybe the next time we talk it'll be longer or something. I don't know. But after today my hopes have gone sky high. Maybe I can build up the courage to tell Tyler how I feel.

Maybe Tyler is starting to notice me?

Basketball Wife, maybe?

Tyler is so good at playing basketball. I wish you guys could see him run up and down the court. I mean he really puts his everything in it and I can tell it's his passion.

Maybe one day when I'm his we can talk about his basketball career and our future. I think I need a push to make this boy mine. This is gonna be tough but I'm gonna ask my friends for help! I want to be a basketball wife. His basketball wife.

Why won't you notice me Tyler?

Another day wasted

I can't build up the courage to talk to this boy. I wish it could be like some romantic scene out of a movie or something. You know when the girl is not that popular and kinda invisible, but the cute popular guy is curious about her beacause she's quiet and intriguing. And one day he bumps into her which makes her drop her books. He then bends down to pick up her books and they bump heads. They both laugh and then stare into eachothers eyes, knowing that they were made for eachother. *sigh* Why can't this happen to me? Why can't Tyler just catch on already. I mean helllllooooo! I'm here. In your face. The angel sent from heaven for you so um come talk to me.

I wasted a whole day just staring and wondering. Hoping that if  I stared at him long enough he would look back at me...And maybe even smile. My friends, Melanie and Isabella, offered to help but I turned it down quickly. Either I get this boy on my own (which most likely won't happen) or not have him at all. Right now my chances are slim to NONE.

Why won't you just notice me Tyler.

Notice me, please?

I really can't believe I have come to this. My pathetic life. I am seriously blogging about a boy who won't even look my way. Well actually he did once and gave me a strange look. That was my cue to stop staring but anyways this is pathetic. I am ashamed and am deeply sorry for the stuff you are about to read.



I first met Tyler in my P.E class. He held the door open for me so that I could walk in. I looked at him and gave him a smile and that was it. In that moment I knew some romantic shizz would start happening. But instead I stumbled over my own feet and began to blush from embarrassment. And now 3 months later I still kick myself over that moment. First impressions are everything and I blew mine. By now I could be his girlfriend. I would probably be with him right now, instead of blogging. But I'm not and now I'm stuck trying to find a way to make this boy mine before June 14th (the last day of school). Help? Anyone? I mean please? I have prayed, asked others to help, and even played hard to get! Nothing, nothing, nothing will work! 

Why? Just why Tyler? Why won't you notice me?